Starting over is a messy business like re-painting

I have just painted over an old canvas, and the nude which i had drawn beneath is still visible - head unsure on slight shoulders, knees not quite strong enough to hold the weight of her awkward but gorgeous hips. a poor rendition of a woman, a woman who does not know herself, and who looks to cower from that knowledge, she ducks her head, afraid that it will see her and she will not escape it...but still, here she is, visible to me - as though to flaunt my inadequate skill- as if to say - "look, starting over is a messy business and if you are going to do it, you will need more paint...and probably a better brush."