how am i supposed to say anything

To you at all? The ground speeds quickly towards me, i feel drown'd by the air, stifled by your hands at my throat although they have not touched me for so long now...and everywhere i look is evidence of the wreckage ...my breast raw with emotion, heaving like the hull of a ship against those rocks, waiting for the final blow of your vengeance. And still, in the rare quiet moments of the day when my restless thoughts turn to you, there are prayers whispered for you... and hope set free on the wind... The stars always were, and always will be, and no one healed me except my Faith, except God. I almost forgot what that hell was until you showed up with the special gift of your smile to remind me.