Where am i going this fine day?

ah.... where AM i going???

further and further into Grown Up Land, maybe? a place i never, ever wanted to go, not even for a second, not even just to look around...not even if the wine is fuller and sweeter with age...(which it is damn it, it IS!!!) maybe i will look around after all, but damn it i won't ever live here!...i don't think they'd let me anyway... (giggle)

perhaps i am going quietly crazy with this new found love, freshly sprung from the ground and my womb, stronger than any mountain, or wind or sun or beast, or song, or planet - stronger than all of these, stronger every second because all of these created this love and as they turnburnriseblowendbegin, it grows stronger because these things made me and are a part of it...

mostly i think am just going to the place where i knew i would go eventually. the place where i would no longer be capable of denying the cold hard facts of my heart, which are as follows...

1. that my heart is neither cold, nor hard and never was, only hiding for a moment because it got so frightened...
2. the first cut IS always the deepest, and it is the deepest only because it never really heals up, and it never really heals up because as we all know, for things to heal properly they need a kiss and a superhero band-aid
3. you can never go back, but you can always go forward and sometimes...the way forward is also the way back

yes?